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Dependent

It's one of those days
When everything goes wrong
And it hurts you in ways
When it feels like you don't belong

Thinking of the choices you made
What you've done
Questioning if redemption is too late
Can this guilt be overcome?
-
I deserve to remain
Locked within the pain
As my tears are wrapped in chains

And it's all true
What we all go through
Take all of my problems and give 'em to you

Because I cannot
Win back the battles I lost
For I am unable to pay the courage it costs

For those who say
That the past can't be changed
They're right, but the memories won't go away

So lead me astray
Carry all of my burdens

My Invisible Life

My Invisible Life

Chest piercing
Pulse bounding
Barely breathing

I'm praying
On the surface of anxiety

I'm weeping
Getting used to this melancholy
-
They said...
They said...
They said...
They'd always be here to help

But instead...
But instead...
But instead...
I've always only had myself

I regret...
I regret...
I regret...
Opening the gates to this hell

It spreads...
It spreads...
It spreads...
And the screams are revealed

Tears shed...
Tears shed...
Tears shed...
I let my sorrow and resolve meld
-
Sight fading
Body numbing
Emotions withering

My desires are overtaken
I know this isn't right

But my lies weren't convincing
So this wi

Behind Hollowed Eyes

Behind Hollowed Eyes

Day after day
I tried continuing on to live this way

With damaged veins made of concrete
I am the undone suicide that was kept a secret

But I can no longer exist
Inside of this pretentious skin

There is a past that I wish I didn't remember
There is a future that just looks too painful

There is nothing you can say or do that'll help
Because there is no turning back now
-
I drag everything down with my endless lies
I smother the remnants of hope until it dies
I win the battles, I win the wars, and I win every fight

I am a maelstrom of deceit
I am a darkness that you cannot defeat
I am the awaiting fate of this pathet

Aura: The Radiance

Aura: The Radiance

I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering

I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall

I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone

I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death

To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope

Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me hig

Crush

Crush

It's my world
These are my shoulders

It's my burden
These are my problems

It's my life
These are the tears I cry

It's my truth
These are my last moments with you
-
When you said those words
My vision got blurry

I know
You're sorry

We couldn't be "us" anymore
It divides me

Double-edged love / I needed you so much
You're all I really got / Without you- I'm lost

When you walked away
I met the ground

I felt a ripping pain
A deafening sound

I won't get up again
This is my place now
-
This is me on my knees
Let me be weak

This is me breaking down
Let me cry out

This is me at my worst
Let me be hurt

This is me cr

Dreaming Of Tears

Dreaming Of Tears

Weary-eyed
Weakened to the very core
Traumatized
I can't endure this anymore

I'm going to black out
And be transported to a realm
Where my screams don't make a sound
Hate keeps me bound while I leave my fears to drown
-
I loath the days without rest
I despise the nights of endless stress

Though I can't settle for anything less
Because lower than this is death

It's like living and sleeping within tortuous realities
Even though I'm unconscious- there is no such thing as rest for me

No one knows how powerful my dreams can be
No one knows all of the graphic images I've seen

Dive into the ocean! / Swim through the thorns!
L

Reflection

Reflection

In the window...
In the ocean...

I see sorrow
I see confusion

I'll wake up tomorrow
And...forget my confessions
-
I regret every given sin
Replaying it all in my mind

Tattoos repent on my skin
They're serving a lifetime

Scars reveal past pain
And it's all mine

I see my eyes! / I fear my lies!
I scream inside! / I hide behind!

Tears won't fade! / Lost my faith!
I'm not okay! / It's too late!

I see through the cracks
Into my fallen reality

I put up a poor act
My transparent sanity

My soul finally snapped
Unleashed the real me
-
In the mirror...
In the destruction...

I see terror
I see justification

I'll wake up as an aven

In The Snowfall

In The Snowfall

I remember it
As if it was just last night
Our surroundings were lit
Illuminated by the surfaces covered in white

The way you smiled
It gave me comfort inside
And my heart seemed to be veiled
Knowing you have become a part of my life
-
Step by step
I stopped blinking
As we tread
I ceased breathing
Chills were sent
Our hands touching
Our lips met

Gazing at you is a must
You curiously peered up
As snowflakes danced down towards us
And it dawned on me that I was madly in love

Mesmerizing my soul
Spreading a calming warmth
Into my core
I held you in my arms
I felt whole
Connected our hearts
Alone

Look Into the Lonely MindShe sits alone,
Her thoughts chasing one another
In an endless game of tag.
Connections,
Understandings,
Things no one else can grasp.
Music and movies play,
Repeating themselves over and over.
Books have been written
Only to be forgotten.
Names with pictures,
Words with no voice,
Art that cannot be shown.
Communicating with words that make no sense
And trying to fit in,
Resulting in failure.
Admired by many,
Refused by them all.
Forever Alone...
A lie.
Beautiful and she knows it
But doesn't believe it.
A touch to liven,
A word to kill.
Confused by the answers
To the questions she asks.
Then it all comes back to...
Why?

True Despair

True Despair

“How the light has darkened.”
“How the strongest have fallen.”

This cloak remains
Unseen by many

A barrier to hide away
Covering up my damaged sanity

I have to act a certain way
And pretend I still have a sense of humanity

But I know it's too late
So there is no restoring me
-
I am both sword and shield
My bane is myself

My wounds will never heal
I am both heaven and hell

I fear my own reflection / I dread my own aggression
I am your ruination / I am your protection

I keep all destruction within / I keep all sympathy distant
I am your nightmare / I am your savior

The gift of infliction
Tells the story

The Truth About: Problems - One of Six[The Truth About: Problems - One of Six]
Read Out Loud!

We can not run from our problems.

They want us to think they are strong.

But the fact of the matter

is that's absolutely dead wrong.

They make us believe we are the ones meek

Too scared and frightened keeping ourselves weak.

Controlling our lives with their own fear.

A fear that if they let up for even a second

We will rise up for battle

And be a force to be reckoned.

So we are kept at bay

By their shape-shifting ability to adapt

Into the thoughts we wish would just stay back.

Sometimes to survive we try to run away

with a false feeling of hope that would never stay.

And

CourageEverybody will have one or multiple fears,
Some of them can bring us to tears.
Our fears will never leave us,
A fear is something we will always possess.

When we face that which we fear,
Even if it's only once a year.
We might be scared to death,
Slowly trying to get control over our breath.
Our heart is beating at a much faster pace,
We might even try to maintain a straight face.

Someone who is courageous,
Even if what that person does might be outrageous.
Is somebody who still fears like you and me,
But who still dares to be and think free.

True courage is not hiding from your fear,
But to face your fear head on, even if you'

To the Silver Moon[To The Silver Moon]
Shining brightly silver moon
From a crescent to full bloom
Up above the Earth so high
Like a lonely seeing eye
There was a dream all men shared
To stand on you and look back here
All through the ages that we dreamt
Till *god took us, so we went
Wars and battles you saw all
Life and death with no recall
But still you shine on with hope
The kind that we do not deserve
All the things from up there
And what we disregard down here
Sea of blue and brown patches
Filled with the mess of progress
Stepping off-world was a dream
Uniting the divided
Scars left by meteorites
Now joined by rubber soled prints
Sky's the limit wasn't true
A portal to the stars
The legacy left on the Earth
Can be continued from afar

Kirsten Z. Jacob

It gets betterIt might not have been your day,
With the sky above turned all gray.
You might ask yourself why?
Sometimes it feels like you slightly die.

You carry this secret with you,
It might make you feel a bit blue.
You don't dare to tell another person,
Fearing your image might worsen.

Fearing of what they might think,
Fearing they might leave you in a blink
Thinking what you will say
When you will tell your parents you're gay

But the actual feeling when you tell,
Even if it might feel slightly like hell.
You know that you are now free,
And you know it will get better,
on that you can trust me.

LimelightLimelight.

Why do we go for the things we're not supposed to?

             Why are we attracted to things our parents are opposed too?

                       Why can't we control the things we are unknowingly exposed too?

                              How come despite our best efforts, we can be fully composed to

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Freak

My abnormalities

Are seen as abominations among humanity

I'm a another stereotype labeled by society

Even though I'm trying my best to just be me
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I may not walk the same
But I still have my own path

I have my own footsteps to make
And my own happiness to grasp

You see me how you want to
I am who I am

You have your own narrow point of view
But I am just another human

So many words to be said / So much hate to be meant
Lash out towards the difference / Guilt trip my already-clouded conscience

I am not the one who is typical
I choose to look a different way

You need to look in the mirror
And ask what does a dictator always say?

Crush

Mortality

Mortality

Living in my skin
It's like a severe drug addiction

It becomes lethal in the long run
It's a destruction that can't be undone

I am my own reaper
I am my own savior
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A scythe is my cross
This blasphemy cannot be stopped

Only those with true despair
Can wield this type of fear

For those who are born in sorrow
Know how to deal with living so hollowed

I had to cast aside my weak point of view
Because there are no demons nor angels

I am my own villain
I am my own hero

Although my perceptions of light and dark
Mean nothing to my already tainted heart

I know reality is what it needs to be
I know there was no hope for someone like

Unsolid

Unsolid

Even when I'm at my weakest
I still lend you my strength
Even when my eyes are their darkest
I still look out for you the best way I can
-
I'm not the hero of the day
I just know what's right

I'm not some selfless saint
Someone has to bear the light

I don't expect any praise
All my deeds are of the same kind

I need not your thanks
No relief can fill this void in my life

No rest for the wicked / No love for the abandoned
No hope for the innocent / No pain for the departed

I'll give you my all / I'll rise while I fall
I'll answer your call / I'll serve until there's no pulse

I'm not looking for acknowledgme

Victim

Victim

A sigh
That could obliterate the indestructible
A tear
That can crush any emotional-barrier
A life
That seems beyond cruel
A fear
That is far out of control

-
It's impossible almost every night / You're the one who left me traumatized
As my lungs become EVER-so numb / This damage can NEVER be undone
Then my wounded memory floods / You will always be a part of my blood

Gasping for air
Holding my head
Afflicted by despair
I will never be able to forget

Living like this
One can only pretend
There is no such thing as darkness
But I knew I could not prevent the end

A part of me
Has that one wish
There was no tragedy

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by ~OminousHero, Jan 14, 2013, 11:48:20 AM
Literature / Poetry / Human Nature / Free Verse

Hermit

_{Staring through...
The broken roof
I peer...
Between my fears

Questioning my existence...
I ask myself
Is there acceptance..?
To be found}
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I'm tired...
But not broken
I tried...
To be outspoken

But your eyes would not stand for it
The glares and snares deemed it forbidden
Since then I shut myself out and away in the distance

Locked inside my mind / Afraid of all humankind
I fell under the pressure / Damaged by society's pleasure
I let go of all possessions / I threw away my humiliation

Dub me another lonely soul
For I am no longer meant this world
I ripped your burdens away from my shoulders

Old bones...
Skin of stone
I'm alone...
In my home
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_{Behind my...
Completely exhausted eyes
I am...
Looking back again

Accepting that...
I wouldn't last
The cruelty...
Of this reality}

Hermitby ~OminousHero

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*SeaOfFireflies Jan 21, 2013 Student Digital Artist

I've never read a poem quite like this before. The emotion you conveyed in it is wonderful.

~OminousHero Jan 21, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you. I'm so glad that you were able to connect to it on some level.
But yeah, this one is really different from my other work that I do. It's all improved, even the layout is improved, I just went with the flow until the very end. I might do this style again in the future, if it is possible.

~PearlsCat Jan 14, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

To me, every stanza seems like a different story, a different person. But they connect so wonderfully, and that's what makes the piece whole. Lovely work!

~OminousHero Jan 15, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Hmmmmmm....

Now that you say it like that, it's an interesting way to view it. hm

I kinda like that concept, but the perfectionist inside of me wants the stanzas to relate clearly to one another.
But the sloth inside of me is content because this is the best I can do with this particular one.

Thank you.

*Cygam-7 Jan 14, 2013 General Artist

I really Love this!

~OminousHero Jan 14, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you so much! I'm so glad you liked it.

~paroapockinroo Jan 14, 2013 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

This is beautiful I connect with it well, described in a way I can not express

~OminousHero Jan 14, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

I'm so glad you were able to connect to this particular one. It's one of my new favorites. I've always had the vision of this poem in my mind, so it's good to finally get it in a solid form for everyone else to take in.

Thank you so much for your reassuring words. It means a lot, it really does.

~paroapockinroo Jan 14, 2013 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

You're welcome

~FairyRora Jan 14, 2013 Student Writer

This is very beautiful and has a lovely rhythm!

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