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No More Therapy
No More Therapy

Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here

Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done

Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision

Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
-
I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything

Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind

Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy
Missunderstood: A Free Verse PoemThey call this the land of the free
But to me,it is a prison
With bars made of hatred
Instead of iron,my mouth is
Sewn shut with thread of ignorance
By the needle of close-mindedness
The masses outcast me because
Of their so-called "morals"
How are they so sure
That my feelings aren't the same
Just because of my anatomy
They believe we can't feel love,only lust
If only it were as simple
As to just run away,find sanctuary
Instead we must prove them wrong
That we don't fit their disgusting stereotype
That our love is very much like theirs
Mortality
Mortality

Living in my skin
It's like a severe drug addiction

It becomes lethal in the long run
It's a destruction that can't be undone

I am my own reaper
I am my own savior
-
A scythe is my cross
This blasphemy cannot be stopped

Only those with true despair
Can wield this type of fear

For those who are born in sorrow
Know how to deal with living so hollowed

I had to cast aside my weak point of view
Because there are no demons nor angels

I am my own villain
I am my own hero

Although my perceptions of light and dark
Mean nothing to my already tainted heart

I know reality is what it needs to be
I know there was no hope for someone like
A Dying Rainbow
A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S
My Invisible Life
My Invisible Life

Chest piercing
Pulse bounding
Barely breathing

I'm praying
On the surface of anxiety

I'm weeping
Getting used to this melancholy
-
They said...
They said...
They said...
They'd always be here to help

But instead...
But instead...
But instead...
I've always only had myself

I regret...
I regret...
I regret...
Opening the gates to this hell

It spreads...
It spreads...
It spreads...
And the screams are revealed

Tears shed...
Tears shed...
Tears shed...
I let my sorrow and resolve meld
-
Sight fading
Body numbing
Emotions withering

My desires are overtaken
I know this isn't right

But my lies weren't convincing
So this wi
Out To SeeI sat on the cliff,
Plucking petals from posies
Watching them fall
And land on the sea.

I wondered, I pondered
Whither you wandered
When I set you free,
To explore the sea.

You said, you promised
To return
Before the moon was full

So, I sat on the cliff,
Plucking petals from posies
Watching them fall
And land on the sea.

When you told me
I cried,
I remember it well
You tried to comfort me,
But I couldn't stop

You said, you promised
To return
Before the moon was full

I sat up all night,
Taking solace
From the soft touch of the stars

And I sat up
And waited
I plucked petals
I waited so long
The moon was so full
Sleep DustI can't seem to blink away,
Hide away
The sleep dust,
For my trust
Has been lost.
The cost
Of my every action,
The indecent attraction
Is indeed here,
Coupled with fear
To hold me back
Against the track.
Who could tell
The lies I sell
Are in fact real,
How I honestly feel.

The sleep dust wakes
When my innocence breaks,
Destroying my one and only hope,
Remaining a lost, forlorn misanthrope.
DivineDo you know what it's like to remember everything?
To hold eternity in your hand
Every touch, every moment, every whisper
Could you ever understand?

Ever been so close to forever?
A heartbeat, but still a lifetime away...

What chance can be taken?
What world can be changed?
When it call comes to nothing
When I whisper your name

My arm around you while you sleep
Lying to close to me
So beautiful, I can hardly breathe
I no longer have to dream
In my hand I feel your heart
I know exactly where you are
All I wanted from the start
So why am I falling apart?

Heaven in the dark of night
Hell in the breath of light
Era Of Silence
Era Of Silence

Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp

Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know

So I no longer speak for myself
No,   not   anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My   pure   torture
-
I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody do
A Lover's LongingI don't think I'll find peace
Until you're here with me
When my body can physically feel
What the Universe has made to be

Every time I hear your voice
I get a shiver up my spine
I giggle like a schoolgirl
Living out adolescence in its prime

I don't think I'll love another
Quite as much as I love you
Sheerly because we're best friends
And are alike in so much that we do

I hug my pillow at night
Wishing it were you instead
Crying the driest tears
That leave no stains upon my bed

I wish I were with you every day
That I may express my love for you
In a slightly differing sense
Than that which you are used to
UGLYBlemishes of any and all kinds devour me.
Pimples, scabs, scars and sores
Cover my face and the blades of my shoulders.

I am disgustingly hideous.

My hair is a greasy, tangled mess,
I've gnawed my fingernails ragged.
He always said to "Stay beautiful and keep it ugly."

I thought I was living by what he said.

But when I met her, I learned the phrase's true meaning.

And truly living by it now, a smile graces my face.
Because I found her.
Because she is the light in my darkest of times.

Looking at myself now, I wouldn't care what I looked like,
I would gladly give up whatever little physical beauty I may have,
Just to be with her a
Ashes Of Tomorrow
Ashes Of Tomorrow

I can destroy what I create
If I really, and truly wanted to
I can light these feelings ablaze
If I didn't want anymore support from you

I barely stop myself time and time again
I realize there's a sense of cruelty in all of us
It's just that feeling, everything might be in vain
When tempted at breaking down those barriers of trust

To jeopardize all of the triumphs
I want to be the one who is blamed
The fire will reach the sky, and become my guidance
I want to be swallowed by my own inner, selfish flames
-
I sit behind the scenes of my friendships
Alone, with a fake smile on my face
That old feeling of lonel
A Spark In The Dark
A Spark In The Dark

After I had met you
I found out that hope can be so wounding
Now I know what love can do
As the pieces of my heart are still falling

You made me fade in-and-out of heaven
Allowing me the taste of peace momentarily
And you're right back to testing my withdrawing patience
While I plunge back into the same old hell with this vulnerability

The feeling is too raw
A tug of war between different kinds of torment
I'm missing you so much
A never ending stalemate, the sorrow is infinite

Stay   Stay   Stay
Don't go, don't leave
Pray   Pray   Pray
Don't let go of me

....Please

-

But you left me for the last time
I
I'm So Far Away From Hope
I'm So Far Away From Hope

Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different

Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing

I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
-
I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew
Flawed Salvation
Flawed Salvation

/Liquid fire\
Sorrow melts and reforms
As heat seeps through my skin
/Frozen water\
Reflections of my childhood are torn
As frost settles on me once again
-
Restless echoes ramble on
Retelling me the stories of yesterday
I remember when my courage was withdrawn
"And you left yourself vulnerable to those crimes of hate."

The liquidsparks flicker
And I wince at that one memory
Then my inner voice suddenly stutters
"I don't know h-how you survived such t-treachery."

Snowflakes descend gracefully
As a cold-burning tear rolls down
I will never know real serenity
"Because all I will ever have is my own."
-
/Br
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It's my world
These are my shoulders

It's my burden
These are my problems

It's my life
These are the tears I cry

It's my truth
These are my last moments with you
-
When you said those words
My vision got blurry

I know
You're sorry

We couldn't be "us" anymore
It divides me

Double-edged love / I needed you so much
You're all I really got / Without you- I'm lost

When you walked away
I met the ground

I felt a ripping pain
A deafening sound

I won't get up again
This is my place now
-
This is me on my knees
Let me be weak

This is me breaking down
Let me cry out

This is me at my worst
Let me be hurt

This is me crushing my heart
Please...let me fall apart...in your arms
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If only I could fall apart
In your arms
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Mood: Love ~Limi16Eve Jan 30, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Love it :)
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~OminousHero Feb 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you.
This one is so very close to me, and it will be close to me for a very long time. So it makes me happy that you were able to enjoy this. :)
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Mood: Love ~Limi16Eve Jan 30, 2013  Student Digital Artist
To explain (so it won't misinterpet) I love to tone , the feeling in words its peeks my interest , I love it because its not fake & corny but original from and not banal
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Mood: Love ~AZI-SnowFire Dec 13, 2012  Student General Artist
i just love your work!! im amazed
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Mood: Joy ~OminousHero Dec 14, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much! :D
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=wdnest Dec 8, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
This is lovely piece and fitting preview picture at top - thanks
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Mood: Wow! ~OminousHero Dec 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much. I tried my best with everything. I might do another version of the cover art sometime down the road. But this current one fits the poem okay.
I'm so happy that you enjoyed it. :)
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~EmperorHadrian Dec 7, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Beautifully written.
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Mood: Love ~OminousHero Dec 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the compliment. I needed that today! I'm thrilled that you enjoyed this. ^_^
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~EmperorHadrian Dec 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're quite welcome. :nod: I did enjoy it, thoroughly.
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